OK, 'whine' warning:

Oh Gods, am I tired. I got carried away last night talking on line and it wasn’t until Himself yelled, ‘SUSAN’ (yes, that’s my full name, but the neighbours don’t need to know), ‘it’s 2 o’clock,’ did it dawned on me that in four hours time I’d have to get up again.

My eyes are sore; they feel like they’ve got grit in them and I could quite happily drop off to sleep at this very minute. That’s the trouble you see, when I start talking I lose track of time. I blame Himself – he knows this and should have shouted sooner. Fancy going to sleep and forgetting about me, that isn’t how it’s suppose to work. Good grief, am I suppose to know when to go to bed without prompts? Yes, interesting point that one – strange as it may seem, I do – must be something to do with being an adult.

And what the Bloody Hell happened to the off the computer by 11.30pm rule? Surely we can’t have it sometimes and not at other times? Yes, just what sort of Top is my husband? Is he a Top at all? Who's in charge around here? Yes, quite correct - I am.

So am I in a Discipline Relationship? Are you allowed to jump in and out of one? Do the rules remain constant for ever, change or just cease to exist? Is DP just another form of 'play'?

The more I read the stories out there, the more I question this genre and where I fit into it, the part my stories play. I’ve listen to other people’s opinions and ideas, and disagreed with a lot, but if that's what they enjoy – good for them, plenty of others enjoy it too – look at the stats counters. I will always get enjoyment out of a well written piece of work.

But - yes, here we go - you could see it coming, couldn’t you? How true to life are these stories. I sometimes think readers forget that this is the authors ‘make believe’ world. They are in full control of everything in it – it’s their fantasy. Yes - that’s right - it’s what makes them tick, they get a buzz from writing it.

I’m no different either – writing gives me a buzz.

Where’s this blog leading – I don’t know, like DP, it will be different for everyone of you. Yes, strangely enough, that’s allowed. Some of you will just read it and think no further than ‘look what happens when she gets tired,’ some of you will think very deeply and may question your own ideas, some will probably wonder if there is some sort of hidden agenda here and others will just think she’s putting her thoughts into some sort of order, I’ve seen her do that before.

New Year, new look website and new stories well underway. I wouldn’t take than too seriously if I were you - it’s my world and it’s contains a very important bit of me - my humour.