Himself left me yesterday, he took Matt with him as well….he couldn’t stand spending any more time with me. OK, he came back again – he only went to see his brother, anything to get away from the grumpy bitch that he was married to. I’m not a nice person when I’m tired – I’d pick a fight with my own shadow – and oh boy, was I in a foul mood. He knows when to run, my husband – nothing he said or did was right – self preservation kicked in and he decided as it was over two weeks since he’d seen his brother – he really should pay him a visit. Coward!

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I glad to say I’m in a much better mood today – probably because the clocks went forward an hour, so I had even longer in bed than normal. The clocks went forward on our wedding night too, all those years ago – unfortunately at the time we’d forgotten about it. We got up really early because I didn’t want to be in last one down for breakfast – only to find we were the first. We stopped our wedding night in a small local hotel – which I’d book months before. I’d asked for a double room, what I didn’t know at the time was I should have asked for one with a double bed. We opened the door to find two singles – and all the other rooms were booked. We tried pushing them together, but you just ended up falling down the hole in the middle. We slept on just the one in the end – after we’d spent nearly half an hour trying to figure out how to turn off the combined TV, video, radio and alarm clock. It woke us the next morning at six – not that we’d got much sleep. No, we weren’t at it all night – it was just that it wasn’t all that comfortable; we kept elbowing and kicking each other. So we got up when the alarm went off - which is about the time I found out I hadn’t packed a hair brush – I sent Himself to a local shop to purchase a comb – I wasn’t prepared to go downstairs looking like I been pulled through a hedge backwards - what would people think we'd been up to!

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We went and looked around the local car boot this morning – I found a book on how to get the best from your digital photographs. This sentence will strike fear into the very hearts of my family and friends - Yes....new and inventive ways to torture them. Not only will they now have to - notice I say 'have to', they don't get much of choice in the matter – look at the original photos, I’m going to start sending them altered one – so they will get the same picture more than once. You’re right – they are extremely lucky people aren’t they?

Later we look the dogs for a walk in the forest – and just so I’d have something to work on, I look the camera. Yes, the lucky so and so's will be receiving some pretty amazing photos shortly of fungi, mushrooms and leaves.

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I’ve received several e-mail’s over the last few days asking when I’m updating again – I would just like to point out that as you lot couldn’t even be bothered to post comments about my cloud – I’m going to keep you waiting – the shoe is on the other foot, so to speak. Nah, not really…I’m writing the next JJ now, which I should hopefully finish shortly. It will then wing its way to Scally and Chris – after which I will receive several thousand ‘Ahems’ and ‘FULL STOP’ back in reply, and make the changes before posting - anything to stop the nagging. Scally is no longer the easy option – pedantic slave driver that she is *grin* - as I found out to my cost when writing Montgomery’s Birthday story – which by the way I am still waiting for his comments on – he’s not normal this slow in making his thoughts known, just the opposite in fact - he’s to busy enjoying himself to bother about it *sniff*. Oh, OK, he having a great time at the moment and I’m really pleased for him, he’s a nice chap and he deserves it – Scally just deserve a large wooden spoon *Laughs*.

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I’m off to visit Warwick Castle tomorrow – Himself has agreed to come home instead of staying overnight. With everything that’s going on for me at the moment I didn't want to stay away – I feel safe here and need to work out what the hell I’m going to do about hating someone. Hate is such a strong word and negative to boot, but what I’m feeling at the moment is a lot more than anger. It’s dawned on me over the last two days just how much my feelings are holding me back – I hadn’t even acknowledge I felt this way until then and it came as a bit of a shock, what sort of person hates another person. But I can't deny how I'm feeling, it was buried deep inside me and has been materialising itself in other ways for an awfully long time – I just didn’t recognise it for what it was. Kicking the shite out of the door for starters – some little thing would happen and I’d blow it out of all proportion. So another step forward – I certainly hope so - maybe the end will be in sight soon.